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CHARLIE            CONCERNING MISS PETERS

CHARLIE                              SERIOUS MATTERS

MR. MARK           LITTLE BARRY’S BURGERS

CONCERNING MISS PETERS

Charlie


My story begins with Miss Peters. It begins with bright summer dresses and the deepest blue eyes I’ve ever seen. It begins with light red lipstick, long blond hair, and the delicate touch that only a grade school teacher could have. I think I can say that with confidence now. I first met Miss Peters when I was 7, during a heavy bout with the depression I hadn't been diagnosed with yet.

She was a timid woman, squeamish around strangers, and rarely confrontational. Though she never had trouble expressing love to her kids- and she had so much love to give. When I cried on the second day of school because I missed my parents, Miss Peters cried with me. When I told her I was embarrassed of the scab on my left knee, she took a red marker and created an ugly blob on her left knee too. When I was 17 and was forced to take an anger management class, I was asked by the print on a questionnaire to write down one of my heroes. I put Miss Peters.

I was 10 years old the first time I told her I loved her. It was the third day of school after the summer break had ended. My uncertain footsteps carried me to her in the classroom during lunch hour- I tried so hard to not seem nervous within the gaze of those perfect blue eyes. She looked down at me, puffing my chest out to be more masculine like the television heroes I had grown up with. I could see her eyes holding back a sea of emotions as she put her hands to her mouth- I hoped to God she was impressed.

“That’s...” she quickly took a breath, “that’s a very brave thing to say to me, Charlie.”

“It’s true. I want to marry you.”

“Well, weddings are expensive. How would you pay for it?”

“I don’t know, I could save up my allowance, I guess. Or maybe I could ask my parents for some money. I get Christmas and birthday money too. We could use that.”

“That’s very sweet of you,” she smiled, but I knew she was delaying the answer.

“Thanks. So what do you say?”

“Well, I like you very much, Charlie, but just not in that way. I really don’t think we should get married. Do you remember the story of the Bear-Dragon?”

“Of course.”

“Well, the Bear-Dragon won’t let me get married right now. I... I hope you understand.”

I looked up at her as I struggled to find my bravery. I had to prove I wasn’t a frightened little boy anymore. I might have only been 10 years old, but I was more a man than a boy. And men take what they want.

“I’m starting to think that story’s not real, Miss Peters.”

I saw something in her expression slip, something slight but powerful. Her hands ran across one another- she took a deep, nervous breath and her eyes quickly looked me over before she spoke again.

“I don’t want to hurt you Charlie, I don’t. You’re a very sweet boy, and you deserve a very sweet girl. But you’re not leaving me a choice.”

“What do you mean?”

"Charlie... I don’t love you. I have never loved you, and I never will love you. I’m a grown woman and you’re a very confused little boy. When you’re older you’ll understand, but I need you to know, I don’t have those feelings for you. You can never be more than just a student to me.”

I stared back at her, studying her like some impossible puzzle, and I waited for a sign of hope, some sort of ‘maybe,’ some hint that she might change her mind. But it wasn’t there.

The pain spread out from my chest like smoke, moving through my stomach, down my legs, across my arms. Shades of reality passed before me as a future without Miss Peters began to sink in.

“Charlie I’m... I’m sorry, I know it hurts.”

She moved in to put her hand on my shoulder, but I wrenched it back as the tears began seeping out. I had gotten rejected, my heart was breaking, and she would never love me. This wasn’t ok. I would never be ok. I began backing out of the room, trying so hard to prove how courageous I was.

“I’m gonna kill that dragon, Miss Peters! I’m gonna save you from it, and I’m gonna prove to you how much I love you- and then I’m gonna marry you. And we’re gonna be happy forever!”

I turned away from her powerful eyes that had broken and defeated me. I ran as fast as I could to my hiding spot in the bushes behind the tire swing, crying the whole way. I threw myself down on the dirt and wrapped myself in a blanket of my own sorrow. I would not express myself to another woman in that same manner for nine years.












SERIOUS MATTERS

Charlie


Christian and I, back in our elementary school days, raced our department store bicycles down the street as fast as we could make them go. We revved our handle bars and made noises like motorcycle engines as we tore past parked cars and the church we were dragged to every Sunday.

We raced from the town's miniscule post office to the city hall that had been a bakery before the city bought it- behind the police station that only employed 3 officers, and in front of the library that no one I knew had ever been inside.

"Do u think we're gonna make it?" I called out over the sound of rushing wind and our overworked bicycle chains.

"It's ok, Charlie," he cried back. "We're gonna make it. Just go faster!"

We cut through the park where we played soccer on Saturdays and took a shortcut behind the public pool where Christian's mom had gotten that strange rash. Down the grassy hill on which we used to ride the snowboard I found in a dumpster, through the chain link fence that had given a 7th grader tetanus, and across the middle school black top which would never tolerate lowly 3rd graders like us on a school day.

We turned a corner at our old preschool, that, in a sign of the town’s prosperity would years later become a strip club. We passed 'Crybaby Court,' took a right just before the corn field with the haunted house, and then hit the home stretch as Christian yelled out: "Afterburners!! GO!" and the two of us pedaled as fast as we could while making the "khvoooooshhhh" sound of rocket engines.

We took a sharp right and came to a halt in the dirt and gravel parking lot of Little Barry's Burgers. Immediately we stared in horror at Kurtis and Robin who sat with smug expressions across their faces as they sucked down their strawberry milkshakes and ate their Little Barry Combo Meals. A milkshake, cheeseburger and large order of fries for $4.99- they never advertised it, you just had to know what to ask for.

In shame, Christian and I pedaled to them as I let out a meager and exhausted "You win, your way's faster..."

Kurtis looked at the two of us suffering from the summer heat as he pulled two milkshakes out from behind his back.

"It's ok," he smiled. "Robin’s mom drove us. But you know... our way was still faster."









LITTLE BARRY’S BURGERS

Mr. Mark


Aside from the fact that he ran and owned Little Barry’s Burgers, few things were known about Mr. Mark. He was a cranky old man, bald with a lone tuft by his forehead that never receded along with the rest of his white hair. He was an illegitimate son of the no-good-card-cheating drunk who had initially won the burger stand with a straight flush- back when it was a humble diner.

The no-good-card-cheating drunk had an impressive set of gambling skills, which his son learned and incorporated into business skills. Mr. Mark used these skills to acquire a dry cleaning business, a pharmacy, a liquor store and a barber shop- all of which he placed next to his burger stand, making it the town’s first and only strip mall.

The gravel parking lot and the wide open space nearby was many things to many different people. To children it was a vast universe that could instantly transform into an Amazonian rainforest, or a dystopian future society full of evil robots, or even the infinite depths of outer space. For teenagers it was a communal gathering place to complain about how terrible their communal gathering place was. For adults it was a convenient mecca of cheap sustenance, beer, haircuts, medicine, and dry cleaning.

Many of the town’s most innovative ideas found themselves played out on that loose gravel. Everything from the annual flea market, to the monthly farmer’s market. One summer it was even covered in orange cones and turned into a BMX race track to keep the neighborhood kids out of trouble.

Mr. Mark was an important man in the community. Teenagers came to him looking for summer jobs or the chance to score some weed- or whatever drugs he was holding. Kids came to him looking for milkshakes and free shade to escape the summer heat. Adults came to him with a medley of problems- whether it was to borrow money, to seek sound financial advice, to get some gambling tips for the Friday night football games, or just to catch up on the latest gossip about town.

Whatever council was sought, or whatever problems he was presented with- he would absorb them, look about himself in a coy way, stare back in silence for nearly a minute, and then speak in a surly, grunted expression. And whatever words or actions he presented would be exactly what the problem bearer was looking for. Because of this he was never treated as a pleasant man- but an important one nonetheless.

“Hey, Kurtis!” Mr. Mark called out on one warm October day.

“Yea?” Kurtis said, trotting up to the old man before giving one last look back at Robin and Christian.

“Why do you kids always hang out in my parking lot, but never buy anything?”

Kurtis shrugged.

“Got no money, Mr. Mark.”’

“Well, go get some from your parents.”

“They’re at work.”

“Can’t you get a job? You’re what- like 13 now? Right?”

“I’m 8 Mr. Mark.”

“Ugh..." he half grunted. “Well, tell your brother to come down here before Saturday. I want to have a look at that pitching arm of his- see if it’ll make me as much money as last year.”

“Ok, Mr. Mark.”

“Oh, and here. Here’s 5 dollars, get me a 6 pack from my liquor store.”

“Ok,” Kurtis said, taking careful hold of the bill.


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